MY FIRST JOB - A SENSE OF ACHIEVEMENT

As a child and even when in high school, I always felt how good would it be to spend your own hard earned money. I always wanted to be self-dependent. Often envious of my elder siblings earning and showing off(I felt so because I was envious of them, they never did it though), I dreamt of the day, I would get thing for me from my own money. The day when I would proudly say my parent "now onwards I will finance my bill and tution fees on my own".After completing my HSC and on joining 1st year of college, my dream came true. I started giving tutions and used to earn 5000 per month(good money as a start up). I was so excited with that job/responsibility in fact. I used to reach before time, force the student to get up for study, often complete his assignments as my homework. I played, partied and studied with them. I had a good number of students-Piyush, Kunal, Saahil.....hehe. I was a friendly teacher. Finally at the end of first month, I got my salary. My head itself went up when aunt handed the envelope to me. I took it in the most decent manner, showing full ettiquettes. As soon as I got out of the house, down the stairs, I was jumping and shouting like crazy. The fisrt thing I did with money was, I got a pen for Papa, which he still keeps with him and in case he doesn't I force him to. Second was GOD for me and I devoted rupees 101 to him( a pretty good amount). I bought chocolates for my siblings and threw a party for friends. When it came to paying the tution fees, I was out of cash.
Mumma had to lend me the money again (one should not promise beforehand and if he/she does so then should not forget).
Next month onwards, I used my income judiciously. Now again, when Im dependent on ym parents for my monthly expenses, I realize how good it was to be self-dependent. Though, they won't say no to me, I feel a little uncomfortable asking them for money. Papa says "money is never a thing before you". I don't understand why? When the whole world is going crazy for me, even me for good placements, why is it thatt parents care so much for us? Why are they ready to take each and every suffering just to see us smile? Why do they forget all there pains on seeing us a little depressed and get all set to make us feel good? And why do I feel so relaxed when I sleep on Pa's lap? digression from the topic!!!!
Anyways.......it feels great to have your own income and Im just waiting for the year 2010, when I get placed (hopefully) and start earning again.
but I also somewhere feel that the lyricist was very correct in writing the song:
"yeh pyaar hi kaafi hain, yeh paisa waisa kya karna"
"pyaare oanchi baahon me, gaati koyal raahon me
dharti pe yahi to khusi hain, apni duniya me aason hi nahi hain"