kabhi alvida na kehna

I remember the first time I left for kolkata leaving my home and friends behind. since then, it has been no turnback. I have not been to home. I miss my room, mumma, my college and my friends. Its not a new thing for me. I have been used to this kind of thing. Shayad pa ke defence me hone se mujhe yahi lesson mili hain ki kabhi kahi bhi attachment mat banaya karo. But can't help it. I have made friends such that I can't forget them now. I miss them, moreover as I have a photogenic memory it's next to impossible for me to not remember them. I remember how I left Preeti at shillong and Piu at Assam and all. I remember how I first met Utsav, Manish and all at Kolkata and how we became good friends. I remeber how apprehensive I was when I first came to Mumbai. I thought that I was going to a land, where I would be all alone. Thanks to few people whom I call friends for making me extremely comfortable over there. It would be unfair on my part if I don't mention two people over here, Nainy (Poka) and Nidhi, my roomies!!!I remember how we use to do masti with each and every action of Nidhi aur uske muh kholte hi dar ke so jaana, the masti, fun and exams ke tension. Nyways, things were not the same when we came for interns and no one knows whose fault it was (everyone has their own perspective) but never mind!!! no digression....atleast one thing is for sure..we had FUN.Well talking about my memory, I at times feel bad that why can't I forget things even when I want to do that and move on. Might be there is something good in it..aakhir sab kuch achche ke liye hi hota hain. My memories haunt me anytime I leave for a new place. When I came to Mundra for my interns, I could not sleep at night. I would feel ki abhi door khulega aur koi to bhi aa jayega. I used to search for the road, which our room faced. I remeber how a dog used to sit over there and two people till late night and whenever I use to feel lonely, that would be my rescue....I would look on the road, speechless, without allowing any single thought to enter my mind. Strange but true, when I went to the washroom at Mundra's hostel, I could hear Nainy asking me "Sumi, aur kitna time lagega?" The next moment I realized what an idiot I was. I did some really stupid things. Got up at 7:35 in the morning and rushed to get my clothes, just with the intention that I don't miss the bus. Pehli baar aisa laga ki "kash hostel ka khana mil jaye." For the first time I found this all AC waala office nothing in front of my classroom. I looked at the pics we had of past days, and guess what?? the next moment I kept them aside, because I came here for a purpose, to learn and I don't want all those thoughts to keep coming to my mind and make me nostalgic (shayad jo ghar se bahar rehte hain unke liye hostel hi ghar hota hain). I know that I have to love my life this way hereafter.

If I get placed next year, then I will again have to live away from home and all alone. But never mind, yeh saari chije kuch hi din rehti hain. Jab sar pe kaam aata hain to haalat kharab ho jaati hain. That is what happened to me over here. I have seen people over here go crazy for their work and just pray ki meri haalat inke jaise na ho. Rest all God knows..

But its true I miss home, my room, all places I have been, Mumbai, ITM, Devi Vandana, Vada Paw waale bhaiya, Jassi da dhaba, Warden maam, hostel ka B'day celebration, Anand ke phate jokes, Ifti ki accent, Samson ke aaaaaaaa..., Nainy ki aew..!!!, Nidhi ki laughing buddha waala pose, sona ka gaana, Sharat ka "I mean", Cheulkar sir ke questions and the way he used to say "Nidhi priya can you please help Nainy, sumitra?", Das maam ki table and people ka pronunciation, Ani ki hindi, Vishaka ka mujhse dar jaana, Priyanka ka questions, Kabita maam ka "zero" (we won't hear it again since she left the college), Shekhari sir ki kahaniyan(Potli baba), Bus waali masti and bus waale bhaiya ki dadagiri, and all those things.....yaar memory ne dhokha de diya....kuch yaad hi nahi aa raha :)... khair baad me..

To end with, I heard this song today morning, isliye yaad reh gaya tha

"pyaar karte karte, hum tum kahi kho gaye agar

aur suni lagne lage, tumko yeh saari dagar

hum laut aayenge, tum bulate rehna

[ KABHI ALVIDA NA KEHNA]2